b-day

i'm 32 today. yep, the big three two. and while i'm not overly concerned about my age, i'm finding myself in a very contemplative space this week. thinking about my life, my current one and how easily satisfying it is, how lucky i am to have the family that i do and the friends that i do and the outlets for my creativity that i do, but also about past lives, past friends, past routines and places that i've lived in my 32 years. so many familiar times and places that are so far away from where i am now in my life, both mentally and physically. as i wrapped up packages to send out on tuesday, i put on a mix of songs from my early twenties, those heady brit pop days of vodka lemonade, dancing til the lights came on and broken hearts all around. while you couldn't pay me enough to leave my life now and relive that one all over again, i felt a small, sad kernel of nostalgia for friendships that have faded away and for the community of music that we had all built around ourselves. bittersweet, i think, is the best way to put it.

but i'm 32 and happy with where i am now and the path that i seem to be ambling along. there is japanese dinner tonight with good friends and a visit with my father-in-law in bendigo this weekend to look forward to. there are photographs to take, an overlocker to play with (i got it out of the box!!), country op shops to pillage, a community of inspiring bloggers to visit, a dachshund to play with and a husband to smooch. things are pretty good : )